Being one of the nominations, like every other nominee in the auditorium, all i was waiting for them to announce my set of awards. It was like a numb feeling of whats happening around me. I could not feel it. I could not wait for the moment they announce the winner. It’s not like that i wanted to win, but i wanted this suspense to end. Be it a winner or not. It should end. The numb feelings and butterflies in stomach.
Annual Pakistan Blog Award held on December 23, 2011 in Regent Plaza Hotel, Karachi Pakistan.
Nearly half way through the ceremony, Rabia Garib announced : ” Best travel blog of the year“. I didn’t realize how many seconds it took for her to say “iExplorePakistan”, but it felt like time has stopped for me. Heart beats increased. My ears could not hear anything else except for her to say iExplorePakistan.
I received the award. While on my way back from the stage and the trophy in my hand, the unconscious questions from back of my head started coming to my conscious. It said ” Best Travel Blog”. Best? Have i really done anything remarkable to deserve such an award? Because right before going to the ceremony my mind was juggling with thoughts of traveling more since i have seen less of Pakistan, as yet. Publish more. Share more. Nearly more then half of my photos and stories are not yet published neither are online. Still putting up this content online made me deserve this award? Win it?
I don’t have another word to put it but “nice” feeling it was. Because iExplorePakistan was something i created with a lot of research and study work, a lot of traveling and most important, with a lot of dreams to see Pakistan. And right after its inception a year and half back, i held my self responsible for working more for the nation. I feel the sense of responsibility in me. And awards like Nishan-e-Azm or Best travel blog makes me more responsible to the nation.
I feel happy. Though i am not a soldier who can fight for the nation on borders, neither a politician to develop productive strategies for the country, but what i do have is a small number of skills and that i can surely devote it for for the country, as a Pakistani, for Pakistan.